Time Travel; and then there was hope.....

You always hope that the news will be good, but you don't actually believe it will be.
Sitting nervously awaiting the PET scan results, three treatments on, will there be any improvement, dare you hope? So it was we met with the consultant, hopeful, yet uncertain.

His words." We can find no cancer in  the lower body", almost bounced off our radar shield ~ hold on, go back, say that again, are you saying? What does that mean? Apparently the scan showed no traces of cancer in my lower body! Amazing! How? Chemo working, but the result beyond belief. There are areas in the upper body which the medics are unsure of, but they could be the site of previous infection. Hence three more chemotherapy sessions are needed to ensure cover, then possibly radiotherapy (three more, six in total).

I've gone from condemned woman, to life, greater positivity, further chances, time! I want to ask if this is permanent, is the incurable just possible curable, can I overcome this cancer, but I stop short in asking. Afraid of bursting the bubble, anxious to hold onto the good news; silent in amazement, dumb in my hope!

So we leave, everyone smiling, shaking hands, grinning at the clerks, chattering; out into the cold air...then silence. We are silent in shock; holding hands, linking eyes, but barely able to speak.

When we do its a jumble of questions, emotions and confusion. What next? Do we go away for a few days? Who must we tell? How do we deal with what's happening? We rang we texted,, we mailed, we shouted, we cried, but mostly we held on. Starring at each other, our disbelief slowly lifting and still needing some resilience, we began to plan. At home, within the hour, we had broken the news to our world, packed the camper van and booked a ferry for France! We may only have a week before chemo starts again but my goodness were we going to make the most of it. Peoples responses were equally incredible; you don't realise just how much care people really invest in you, it truly humbling!

This may only be a reprieve, could be temporary, potentially is passing, but it had the possibility of permanent. Everything has changed, the norm is different. Its as though magnetic north has changed, our world turns on a different axis. Normality has flipped. We exist in a different dimension. This is truly time travel, we adventurers in a new land, explorers on an alien planet and loving every magical moment