The Final Corner....can you see what it is yet?

Lump free & diagnosis clear.

 Primary vaginal cancer (rare 270 only in UK last year) and secondary lymph node, as they act as the filtration system for the body. Solution removal of all groin lymph nodes both sides  of  my torso; a 'beautiful' operation apparently meaning clean  & tidy by the medics, but 3 hours in surgery and then 7 /10 days in hospital to allow the drains to clear excess fluid.

Joy of joys, but at least I have a plan of action so tomorrow (29th May 2014), I go under the surgeons blade for the forth time in 2014. So for those confused by the has she got cancer  / hasn't she...there's a problem /no  its all clear... of my journey through cancer, I have put together a précis of the medical bits.
Not an award winning piece of prose, but it helped me to come to terms with the timescales and adrenalin of my imminent surgery and situation.

See you in about two weeks, I'll keep writing but don't think I'll have internet to publish. And to my friends and family, those who really care, be kind to each other, I'm getting there!

DATE	ACTION	NAME
13 May 2013	In France I found lump in Rt groin
27 May 2013	French GP Referral for bloods & ultra scan	Dr Gilles-Verilat
28 May 2013	Blood Tests	Md Prodhomme
30 May 2013	France Mayenne Radiologist	Mr Delafond
31 May 2013	Return to French GP. She advised return home.	Dr Gilles-Verilat
17th June 2013	Leek UK: GP referral UHNS oncology & dermatology	Dr Chudyk
18 June 2013	UHNS Oncologist	Mr Soumian
16 July 2013	UHNS  Guided Biopsy	Mr Clarke
30 July 2013	Letter biopsy clear ‘reactive changes only’	Mr Narayannan
12th August 2013	Routine  / non urgent Appointment Oncology	Mr Soumian CANCELLED BY HOSPITAL
5th November 2013	Appointment Oncology	Mr Soumian CANCELLED BY HOSPITAL
26 November	Appointment Oncology	Mr Soumian CHANGED BY HOSPITAL
1 November 2013	Appointment Oncology	Mr Soumian
10 December 2013	Appointment Oncology	Mr Soumian
15 January 2014	UHNS Ward 105  Rt Lymph node removed	Ward 105 (local anaesthetic)
28 \January	Diagnosis squamous Cell Carcinoma	Mr Soumian
5 Feb	UHNS Gynaecology (no problems found)	Mr Redman
5 Feb	CAT Scan
18 Feb 2014	Oncology ‘Women of mystery’ CT Scan showed no further cancer. Referral to dermatology & ENT	Mr Soumian
11 March 2014	Dermatology & Plastic surgery. Left lymph node painful.	Mr Craven & My Rayatt
2 April 2014	UHNS Ward 105 Wide  excision of rt lymph node area	Mr Rayatt (local anaesthetic)
24 April	Found lump in vagina	Rang Specialist nurse UHNS
30 April 2014	UHNS Called in to Gynaecology; vaginal lump	Mr Redman
7 May 2014	UHNS: Ultra scan left groin	Mr Clarke
8th May 2014	UHNS  Ward 105 Vagianl lump & left lymph node removed	Mr Kudampur (Full anaesthetic & overnight stay)
21 May 2014	UHNS :ENT All clear. Previous appointments cancelled by hospital
21 May 2014	UHNS Gynaecology Both lumps removed cancerous. Vaginal cancer diagnosis	Mr Redman
21 May 2014	CAT Scan
29 May 2014	UHNS Ward 105 and 7 / 10 day stay Both lymph node areas in groin removed	Mr Redman / Mr Kudampur
9 June 2014	UHNS Dermatology appointment changed	Mr Craven
30 June 2014 due	UHNS Dermatology	Mr Craven

 

Post Surgery Ode.The early hours May 2014

No bucket list, but things to get,
That book to write, that fitness yet.

To pen the poems, swim the pool,
Cry just a little, act the fool.

Ignore the goading, reject the sham,
Enjoy the loved ones. Be who I am.

Jealous people hard to please.
I leave behind me taunt and tease.

Gather by me all that's good
Shout down evil, speak as would.

Love to those whose care I take,
Thanks & honesty, friend and mate.

Look for angels wherever you go,
Unlikely people, we all  should know.

Share a smile, a touch, a kiss,
Voice & reason, talk can miss.

Now to sleep, please God to dream.
Pains sweet evasions what I mean.

Tomorrow soon, new day, new life.
Mum, friend & daughter...more living, loving wife.

Third corner...the primary source?

May 2014 saw the gynaecologist again and he concurs there is now a vaginal lump, just under 1cm and it must be removed & biopsied; scheduled one week later. Six days on (including a long bank holiday) and  seeing the radiologist again, I am having another groin lump ultra scanned.

He concludes that this lump should also be removed and biopsied and suggests that this might be done simultaneously with the gynae op tomorrow. Great so two for the price of one is a real possibility! Strange how ones perspective changes & what's important to you alters; suddenly I'm really excited about having the operation; I could be lump free!

Its a lovely evening with a full arch rainbow behind the house. What is it they say that a rainbow arches between heaven & earth & is a promise of good to come. So here's hoping the surgeon's blade tomorrow can give find my pot of gold, 'good health'.