Saturday 16 August 2014

Tick, Tock Time...

We measure many things in daily life and give them value, but when it comes down to it only one thing matters… time itself! All else we can potentially acquire, save for, accumulate, store or even steal .But not time.
Indeed we tend to use negative terms for the noun TIME. We ‘save’ time, have a ‘hard time’, wait a’ long time’ when we describe this valuable commodity. We are dismissive of it; ‘anytime’, ‘sometime’, ‘overtime’ or we ‘waste time’.
We even quantify time; we ‘manage’, have ‘timetables’, are counting time] , ‘marking time’, seeing time passing or give ‘time out’! If it doesn’t move as we think and resolution is not planned, we look for ‘extra time’, we ‘reflect on time’ and hope that ‘time heals.
But in the ‘course of time’, we realise that ‘time matters’, it is the one final limit. Equally & importantly, time is the most precious commodity we can have. So as time waits for no man’ and ‘time doesn’t stand stil'l, I’ve come to think that just keeping ‘keeping pace with time ’or ‘letting time pass’, makes no difference. Time is what it is, ‘a life time’.

Ever noticed how the best words are four lettered, I mean the words like ‘good’, ‘love’, ‘hope’ , not merely words but real emotions. So when the doctor, speaking to an elderly patient gives ‘time’, when our neighbours in France share coffee time, or when visitors sitting at your bedside natter and share; they all give their most precious of gifts ‘time’!
All those calls and cards, those mails and twitters, those gifts and letters they are all peoples way if giving me the gift of their time and its is quite magical. So I have one strong hope: Give me time to say thank you, time to love and time to breathe

 
 

The Finality of Words

 
So what happens next, life’s going on all around and you’ve been told whart we all know, but choose to close the door on…’Time is not infinite & you have a sell by date’.You start to notice phrases & catch lines, ironies and humour, all laced with cold fear.
First was. “Danger of Death” posted on an electricity substation, well I suppose deaths quite a dangerous thing. Then ‘”Love your Life” on a Slimming poster, don’t we all just take that for granted, we really should LOVE the life.
Next an advert for a soft drink, “Live Well”, is this a ’well’ as in happiness, wealth or health?
And finally and very profoundly, in seeking moral / spiritual help from a professional friend I asked,
‘How can I prepare for death & make it easier for those I love and care for. The answer was sweet in its simplicity, happy in its honesty…
My Deacon friend concisely said.. ‘Prepare for Life, and that's what we all should do.

So I'm posting  daily,  simple things which make me happy on  #100HappyDays. Looking for the small, the special and the wonderful in my everyday life.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger...

Anxious Visitors...UHNS room with a view

 

Meat wagons arriving all through te night ,
Sirens wailing, flashing blue light.
Let’s get then there mate, just can’t wait.
Quick as you can lads; great! great! great!

Pateints a'slumbering, drug, doped haze,
Visitors arriving, hospital maze.
St back, fall bac,k let it all go by,
Big picture window, time goes by.

Billowing clouds, sunlit heights,
Chuntering cars, road race fright.
Nurses arriving, change of shift,
Always surprising, vista drift.

Feeling the panic, but not the pain.
Constantly watching anxieties the name.
Mind eve thinking words/thoughts to tame,
Be still be silent, waitings the game.

Friday 15 August 2014

Cut, test, forth op...pre op thoughts



I wait again, same clock, same time,
Fingers moving not reason nor rhyme.
 
As though my life so measured be,
By test & record to remedy.
 
How much they cut & deep the pain.
Longing resolution & crave the same.
 
So this will happen, that might be.
Just get me done, operate on me.
 
I’ll wake in confusion affirming my name,
But let it be over & not come again.
 
I’ll give all their honour and smile sublime.
Please let me be healthy, live this life of mine.